I'm now back... blogging at this crappy as ever blogspace that I've got... why? you may ask. Cause this is the only place that I could... be myself? perhaps. Ok, let's face it. We all have different moments in our lives. Different emotions have to be blogged at different blog space. This is an abandon space. Nobody's gonna read this anyway. Just because I've officially announced my blogspot space. It became a place that I could only post photos of food I eat everyday. Just because my mom will be reading every post of mine. baH. I've slowly lost the freedom of speech, even from blogging!

I don't know me. I guess I'll never know me. Cause currently I'm figuring out, how to be me. How do I use to be? I can't remember... now I couldn't be bothered.

Was listening to Jack Johnson's album in the music shop awhile ago. "You don't have to hold your head, higher than your heart." He sings. It strucked me. Just like the thunder lightning. I don't have to be, who people wants me to be.

I'm not nice. I'm not sweet. I'm not innocent. I'm not cute.

I'm someone I'm not, trapped in this body for some reason.

I'll be who I want to be. Hopefully. I think I'm slowly being who I want to be.

I started to say things that I'm not quite sure whether I mean it. Agreeing to things people say and doesn't even bother if it will affect anyone. Saying things that people want to hear and not they have to hear. Do they even care? I wonder. Now I realise all these while I've been trying hard to understand how everyone feels and telling them things they have to listen and not what they want to listen. And that suppose to sound more reasonable? But I'm tired and I'm sick of acting someone busybody asking people questions that they would like me to ask them about. I can't do that anymore. I'm not someone that nice. Though I've tried. I'm just not that person. I'm sorry.

But I do treasure things and people that I've got and I've met. I won't pretend that I want to be friends with you. But if happen that we became friends without pretending, I will treasure you even more. I don't like to make up things, even if I understand that sometimes it just need some initiative to get things moving. I just don't feel like being positive anymore, for the time being at least.

Sometimes it's good to pretend. Cause when you don't pretend, everything around you will turn sour. I don't know how it happens. But it just did. Maybe that's because everyone is pretending. Pretend that they care. Pretend that everything mean something. Yeah. Whatever. As confused as ever. dUh!

WAhwahahah!!!! A few more hours, exams will be OVER!!! Yippee!!!

I'm nearly done with revision. Left gene therapy. Once I'm done, I'll go through everything again. And I really hope things that I've studied appear on the exam paper. Dear Paul Young, I've understood almost all of the mechanism, so stop torturing us ok? Thanks.

Oh ya. "Lauched" Momoko no Himitsu. Haha. As if it's some grand branding. It's my second new blog (since there's already 2 available, so I might as well utilize them..). I'm going to do a research on Japanese Female Rock band. Maybe soon will go into Female Rock bands in other countries but I'm more interested in the Japan culture you see. Hope I could learn more from this assignment. Haha. Started with the first blog. So far so good. The blog looked pretty nice to me. At least better than this full-of-crap one.

Okay, back to gene therapy. Retroviruses rocks! So many freaking functions. No wonder HIV so popular.

I was just wondering does similarity affects compatibility within two human beings. It doesn't matter what kind of relationship. Friends, lovers, families, colleagues, classmates, business partners etc. Does similarity affects?

I think it does. Similarity has a pretty big influence here. A few important factors that involve in similarity:-

1. Race,

2. Background,

3.Favourites,

4. Habits,

5. Likes and dislikes.

Extra factor --> Appearance

Say if two individuals have the same race, background, they tend to understand each other better even if they've got totally opposite favourites, habits, likes and dislikes. On the other hand, two individuals with the favourites, habits, likes and dislikes with different ethnic backgrouds will get along as well. However, individuals with totally different background, different race, different favourites, habits and likes or dislikes can never get along. And putting in the extra factor of appearance, even if the only thing they like about each other is the appearance, they can never get along as well. In some cases, two individuals with same race, grew up in same environment but different kind of educational background plus family influences, different favourites, habits, likes and dislike not putting the extra factor into account, might not get along very well too. Individuals with same ethnic, different background, different habits, little similarity in likes and dislikes (2 in 10 for example), can get along very well.

This is getting complicated. What was the bottom line? Similarity is very important in maintaining any relationships.

Note: Ok ok. I know there isn't any important point mentioned here. Just bare with my rubbish once in a while ok.

Anyway PROUDLY PRESENTS....

My past life diagnosis:

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Central India around the year 875. Your profession was that of a philosopher and thinker.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
Timid, constrained, quiet person. You had creative talents, which waited until this life to be liberated. Sometimes your environment considered you strange.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your main task is to make the world more beautiful. Physical and spiritual deserts are just waiting for your touch. Keep smiling!

Do you remember now?  Eh...not really. >_<

Click here for your Past Life Diagnosis.

Maybe I should really learn how to numb my own desire. When your desire and ability doesn't fit into an equation, don't force it, 'cause it will never ever work. Don't lose your track. Step by step. Follow what comes first, then move to the next. If you skip one step, the next step will never succeed. Get it? Get it. Good. So meanwhile, just follow the next step, and observe others.

Glad that meow meow is doing good. ^_^ Really. At least she's living a life she want to live right now. I really envy her. At least she's still trying her best and have the guts to do what she want to do. Unlike me, once bitten, twice shy. I've kind of lost my guts in doing what I want to do. Heck, I've lost my innocence, but gained quite a number of priceless experience in dealing with the reality in this world. Everyone has their own limit and ability to deal with. I've got to accept mine. You've got to accept yours too. =)

Happy leads to eternity. Haha. Flexibility leads to happiness. So be flexible and then you'll be happy then you'll live eternally. Great!

Back to virus. =X